Tuesday, September 6, 2011

magandang pagnilayan...

"Don't aim at success - the more you aim at it and make it a target, the more you are going to miss it.
For success like happiness, cannot be pursued; it must ensue, and it only does so as the unintended side-effect of one's personal dedication to a cause greater then oneself or as the by-product of one's surrender to a person other than oneself.
Happiness must happen, and the same holds for success: you have to let it happen by not caring about it.
Listen to what your conscience commands you to do and go on to carry it out to the best of your knowledge.
Then you will live to see that in the long run - in the long run, success will follow you precisely because you had forgotten to think about it."  (Man's Search for Meaning, VEF, Vienna 1983)

Monday, September 5, 2011

"Halika nga..."

After a busy August 2011, I looked forward for a lighter schedule of commitments in September. 
I don't know if I had to be grateful because scheduled groups in the house cancelled
and two of the early days of September were quiet days.
I was just beginning to enjoys these quiet days when serious concerns in the house came up,
concerns on personnel and some personalities of my own community members.
I am stressed out... and can't help but told God "ayaw mo ako talagang maging masaya ha...?"
I felt like a child given something to enjoy and then I have not even enjoyed it, "binawi na."
Of course this was not the first time ... many "like this" had happened in past.
Sometimes, I have similar feelings, sometimes not.
But in all, I gracefully survived.  Okey pa rin ako.
Sa ngayon ito ang naiisip at nararamdaman ko... may konting tampo sa Panginoon ...
pero tampo na hindi lumalayo... sa halip ay lalong nakikipag-usap....
Tampo ng may lambing... at sa aking pagtatampo...
sinasabi Niya "Halika nga..."
at naramdaman ko ang higpit ng yakap Niya.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

it is still me and my God...

despite all the works done,
all the smiles and 'gratitudes' received,
after meeting new friends & co-workers in the ministry,
receiving their love and affection,
despite many who loved and is loving me,
many whom I love or are significant to me...
at the
end
of the day...

when my back touches my bed,
everything
is still
between
me
and
my God.